rehearsing the conversation in the shower where you finally tell them, then deciding to stay silent again

The Truth Stays Wet and Heavy

The water runs hot, and you rehearse the words one more time—the exact tone, the perfect ending. But by the time you reach for the towel, the silence has won again.

You walk out wearing the mask, dry and composed, while the truth stays wet and heavy in your chest. The light does not need your performance to be real; it was there before you decided to speak, and it remains when you choose to stay quiet.

What you hide is not hidden from the light—it is already known, already held, already loved. The mask is heavy, but you do not have to carry it alone.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas 3, 1 John 3:19-20

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