the silent panic of rehearsing casual greetings in the shower so no one suspects you are crumbling

The Light Finds You in the Cracks

The water runs hot, and you are practicing the shape of a smile that doesn't tremble. You rehearse 'good morning' until the words feel like stones in your mouth, terrified that tomorrow someone will see the crack in the mask and know you are crumbling inside.

The light does not need your performance. It does not require you to hold yourself together before it draws near.

There is a truth that lives in us and will be with us forever, deeper than any role you play or any greeting you perfect. You are not a fraud who has tricked the world into thinking you are whole.

You are a hidden treasure, and the very part of you that feels like it is falling apart is the place where the light is waiting to be found. The gathering dark is not a verdict on your failure; it is simply the quiet room where you can finally stop acting and let the love that knows your real name sit with you in the silence.

Drawing from

2 John, Gospel of Thomas

Verses

2 John 1:4

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