rehearsing your own eulogy in the shower because you're terrified no one will know what to say about the real you

The Secret Name Known Only to Light

The water drowns out the house, but not the voice in your head rehearsing the words you hope they'll say when you're gone. You are terrified that if they knew the real you—the messy, broken, hidden parts—they would have nothing good to offer.

That the eulogy would be a lie, or worse, silence. But listen.

There is a name written on a white stone that no one else knows. Not the one you perform for the world.

Not the one you scrub clean in the shower. A secret name, known only to you and the light.

It is the truth of who you are, held safely in a place where no accusation can reach. You do not have to curate your legacy for people who cannot see your heart.

The one who knows you best has already spoken your name with love. Stop rehearsing.

The truth is already known.

Drawing from

Revelation, Gospel of Thomas

Verses

Revelation 2:17

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