the quiet terror that your partner is secretly keeping a mental tally of every mistake you make, waiting until the count is high enough to justify leaving

The Light Does Not Keep Score

The sun is up, but the ledger in your mind is still open. You are counting the mistakes, certain your partner is too, waiting for the final number that justifies leaving.

But the light does not keep score. It sees you not as a sum of errors, but as a child it knew before you ever made a single mistake.

There is a place inside you where no tally exists, where you are already forgiven and fully held. The kingdom is within you right now, not a reward for perfect behavior.

You do not have to earn your stay in this house or in this heart. The light that lives in you is not watching for a reason to go; it is staying because it knows your root.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas 3, John 1:48

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