the crushing suspicion that your own joy is a counterfeit performance you don't actually feel

The Light Runs Before You Are Real

The sun is up, and you are moving, but inside you feel like a hollow shell performing a happiness you do not possess. You suspect your own smile is a lie you tell the world to keep them from seeing the crack.

But listen — the light does not ask you to manufacture joy before it arrives. It simply rises.

There was a father who saw his son coming home from a long way off. He ran.

Before the apology, before the speech — he ran. The light runs toward you while you are still rehearsing your fake performance.

It does not wait for you to feel real. It makes you real by being near.

You are not a fraud hiding in the dawn. You are the place where the light has chosen to shine today.

Drawing from

Luke, Matthew

Verses

Luke 15:20, Matthew 5:14

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