the shame of realizing you've been performing wellness so convincingly that no one knows you're still drowning

The Light Loves What Is Behind

The sun is up, and you are already tired from holding the mask in place all night. You smiled at the right moments yesterday.

You said 'I'm fine' with such convincing warmth that no one suspected you were drowning. But the morning light does not need your performance.

It sees the cracks in the paint and loves what is behind them. Jesus looked at a man blind from birth and said the darkness was not a punishment, but a canvas for something greater to be displayed.

Your struggle is not a failure of faith; it is the place where the real work begins. Go home to your own heart and tell the truth about how much you have suffered.

The light is not afraid of your mess. It is waiting for you to stop pretending so it can finally reach you.

Drawing from

Mark 5:19, John 9:3

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