the panic that your exhaustion is a betrayal of the performance you owe the world

The Light Holds You When You Cannot

The sun is up, and the world is already asking for your performance, but your bones feel like lead. You look at your exhaustion and call it a betrayal, as if your fatigue is a failure to love the light enough.

But the light does not demand your energy; it demands your presence. What you bring forth from that tired place will save you, but what you try to manufacture from emptiness will only destroy you.

The kingdom is not a destination you reach after you've rested; it is spread out upon the earth right now, hidden in plain sight beneath your heavy eyelids. You do not have to earn the morning by pretending you aren't weary.

The light was here before you woke up, and it will hold the day even if you cannot.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas 70, Gospel of Thomas 113

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