the secret shame of hiding a relapse from the people who cheered your count

Stop Holding Your Breath

The sun is up, and the house is quiet, but you are carrying a weight that feels heavier than the night itself. You hid the stumble from the ones who cheered your progress, and now the silence between you and them feels like a wall.

But listen — there is a light within you that was there before the fall, and it is there still, untouched by the shadow you tried to conceal. Thomas says there is light within a person of light, and it lights up the whole world; if it does not shine, it is simply because you are holding your breath.

You do not need to scrub the floor before you let someone in; you only need to stop pretending the dirt isn't there. The dawn does not ask for your perfection; it only asks for your eyes to open.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas 24, Matthew 6:6

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