health anxiety — waiting for test results

The Light Before The Diagnosis

The sun is rising, but your mind is still in the dark room of waiting. You are holding your breath for a result that has not arrived, and the silence feels like a verdict.

But the light does not wait for the report to be true. It was there before the symptom, and it will be there after the diagnosis.

There is light within a person of light, and it lights up the whole world—even this morning. You did not earn this light by being healthy, and you cannot lose it by being sick.

It is the part of you that no test can measure and no fear can touch. Bring forth what is within you, even if all you can bring forth is this trembling hope.

The dawn is not asking you to be strong. It is only asking you to breathe.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, Matthew

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