the terrifying fear that if they ever found out, they would look at you with disgust instead of love

The Dawn Does Not Ask You To Be Clean

The sun is rising, and with it comes the old fear that if they saw the real you, they would turn away in disgust. You have spent the night rehearsing their judgment, certain that your hidden truth is too heavy for anyone to hold.

But listen — the light does not recoil from what is hidden. There is a story where a man born blind was asked who sinned to cause his darkness, and the answer was neither him nor his parents, but that the works of God might be displayed in him.

Your shame is not a verdict; it is a canvas. The kingdom is not a distant reward for the perfect; it is inside you right now, waiting for you to stop hiding and start knowing yourself.

What you fear is exposure, but the light sees your secret and calls it by name without flinching. The dawn does not ask the night to be clean before it arrives; it simply breaks, and the dark is gone.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, John

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