the specific memory of your child's face the moment they realized you wouldn't show up, and the terror that this is the last image they hold of you

Mercy Moves Faster Than Memory

The sun is going down, and the house is finally quiet, but that face is the only thing you can see. The moment their eyes dropped.

The exact second the light went out of them because you weren't there. You are terrified that this is the final image they hold of you — that you are defined by the door you didn't walk through.

But listen. The light does not keep a ledger of your absences.

It does not freeze-frame your worst failure and call it your identity. There is a mercy that moves faster than your memory.

It has already gone to them. It is sitting with them in the disappointment you left behind, loving them with a love that does not depend on your perfection.

You came from the light, and you are returning to it, and nothing — not even this shame — can sever the thread. The day ends.

The fear says it is too late. The truth says the story is not finished.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, Luke

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