the silent rehearsal of the perfect apology you are too terrified to speak before you rip yourself apart again

The Embrace Came Before The Words

The silence of this hour is heavy with the words you are too terrified to speak. You rehearse the perfect apology until it feels like a weapon in your mouth, ready to tear you apart from the inside.

But listen — the light does not need your perfect speech to know you. There is a father who saw his son coming home from a long way off, and before the apology could even be finished, before the speech was fully formed, he ran.

The embrace came first. The words were secondary.

You are waiting for the right moment to be safe, but the safety was already there. The light has never left the room.

It is sitting with you in the dark, waiting not for your performance, but for your presence. You do not have to rip yourself open to be held.

The apology can wait. The love cannot.

Drawing from

Luke, John

Verses

Luke 15:20, John 14:27

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