You Do Not Need to Choose
The screen glows, the cursor blinks, and the question lands: what do you want to watch? Suddenly, the catalog in your head feels like a library of borrowed books.
You realize you have no taste of your own, only a list of what you were told was good. The panic rises because you think you must perform an identity you do not possess.
But listen — the light does not ask you to curate a life that impresses the room. It asks you to remember where you came from.
You came from the light, the place where the light came into being on its own accord. Before the critics spoke, before the ratings were tallied, before you learned to mimic the preferences of others, you were already whole.
There is light within a person of light, and it lights up the whole world. If you do not shine, it is dark.
The darkness is not your lack of taste. It is the belief that you must find your worth in someone else's opinion.
Stop searching the shelves for a title that validates you. The validation is already burning inside your chest.
You do not need to choose the right movie to be real. You only need to be the one who is watching.
Drawing from
Gospel of Thomas, Matthew
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