the terror of someone asking how you really are and feeling your throat close up because you cannot trust yourself to speak without collapsing

The Light Holds You When You Cannot Speak

The question lands softly—'How are you?'—and your throat closes like a fist. You feel the mask slip, just for a second, revealing the trembling thing beneath that cannot trust itself to speak without collapsing.

You are holding so much silence that it feels like it might crack your ribs. But listen—the light does not need your performance to see you.

It sees the cracks in the porcelain and calls them doors. There is a truth living inside you that is greater than your fear of falling apart.

It waits behind the closed throat, steady and unbroken. You do not have to hold the world together with your words today.

The light is already holding you.

Drawing from

1 John, Gospel of Thomas

Verses

1 John 4:18

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