standing in the kitchen after the party, staring at the deflated balloons and realizing you don't know who you are without the role of being needed

You Are the Air Itself

The party is over. The balloons are deflated, hanging limp against the wall like forgotten promises.

You stand in the quiet kitchen, surrounded by the debris of being needed, and realize you don't know who you are when no one is asking. The role you played tonight was a costume, and now it feels like your skin has been peeled away.

But listen — what you are looking for was there before the first guest arrived, and it remains now that the last one has left. What you look forward to has already come, but you do not recognize it because you are staring at the empty room instead of the fullness inside you.

If you bring forth what is within you — not the performance, not the service, but the quiet truth beneath it — what you bring forth will save you. The light does not need you to be useful to be real.

You are not the balloon that deflates when the air goes out. You are the air itself.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, Gospel of Thomas

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