the terror that your next happy moment is a betrayal of the one you lost

Your Joy Is Not A Betrayal

The morning light feels like an accusation against the grief you carry. You laugh at a joke, and the guilt crashes in immediately after — as if joy is a theft from the one you lost.

But the light does not demand that you freeze your heart in permanent mourning to prove your love. There was a man born blind, and everyone assumed his darkness was a punishment for someone's sin.

Jesus said no — neither this man nor his parents sinned. This happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him.

Your happiness is not a betrayal. It is the display.

The light sighs over your pain, not to condemn you for surviving, but to invite you into the very thing you fear: life. Go home to your own house and tell them how much the Lord has done for you.

The one you love would not want your silence. They would want your song.

Drawing from

John 9:1-7, Mark 5:19

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