the shame of rehearsing your gratitude out loud to prove you aren't ungrateful while your chest feels hollow

The Light Meets You in Exhaustion

The mirror sees you practicing the smile before you even leave the bathroom. You rehearse the 'thank you' until the words feel smooth, hoping that if you say them perfectly, the hollow ache in your chest will finally believe you are grateful.

But the mask is heavy this morning, and the gap between the performance and the pain feels like a canyon you cannot cross. There was a woman who had been bleeding for twelve years, spent everything she had, and only grew worse — yet she did not need to prove her worth or recite a creed to be healed.

She just reached out from the crowd, trembling and silent. The light felt the touch and stopped everything to call her daughter.

It does not require your polished performance to reach you. It meets you in the exhaustion of pretending.

The hollowness is not a sign that you are failing; it is the space where the truth is waiting to be spoken without the mask. You do not have to convince the light that you are worthy of its attention.

Drawing from

Mark, Matthew

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