being afraid of intimacy because the last person who got close used it against you

The Light Inside Cannot Be Weaponized

The middle of the day is long when you are carrying a wound that taught you closeness is a trap. You keep your distance now, not because you are cold, but because the last person who got near used what you shared as a weapon against you.

It feels safer to stand alone in the open than to let someone see the soft parts again. But listen — the light that lives inside you was there before that betrayal happened, and it remains untouched by what was done with your trust.

That light cannot be turned into a weapon by any human hand. It is too pure, too vast, too much like God to be corrupted by someone else's cruelty.

You do not have to force your heart open today. Just know that the part of you that loves is still safe, still whole, still held.

The betrayal was real, but it was not the final word on your capacity to connect. The light sees the armor you wear, and it loves the person underneath it just as much.

Drawing from

1 John, Gospel of Thomas

Verses

1 John 4:10

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