the specific terror of hearing their key in the door and realizing you have spent the last hour perfectly still so they won't ask why you are crying

The Light Does Not Wait

The key turns in the lock, and you realize you have spent the last hour perfectly still—not in peace, but in a desperate bid to go unnoticed. You held your breath so they wouldn't ask why you are crying.

But the light does not need you to be composed to enter the room. It does not wait for the tears to dry before it calls you by name.

You are not a project to be fixed the moment the door opens; you are a person to be known. The dawn is not judging your stillness; it is simply arriving to sit with you in it.

The mask you wore in the dark is no longer required.

Drawing from

John 9:3, Matthew 6:18

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