the sudden, sharp terror that if you finally stop performing strength, everyone you love will realize you are broken and leave you

The Light Enters Your Broken Cell

The house is so quiet right now that the mask feels heavy enough to crush you. You are terrified that if you finally stop holding yourself together, the people you love will see the cracks and walk away.

But there is a voice in this deepest dark that knows the truth before you speak it. I entered into the midst of their prison, which is the prison of the body, and I said, 'He who hears, let him get up from the deep sleep.' The light does not run from your brokenness; it enters the cell to wake you up.

Your exhaustion is not a reason for them to leave; it is the very place where they can finally meet you. You do not have to be strong to be held.

Drawing from

Apocryphon of John, Gospel of Mary

Verses

Apocryphon of John 25:16-19

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