Love Is A Gift Not A Loan
The house is quiet now, but the performance is already underway. You are walking on eggshells in your own home, convinced that love is a loan you must repay with flawless behavior.
One wrong word, one missed cue, and you fear the whole arrangement will collapse. You are exhausted from holding your breath, waiting for the moment they realize you are not who you pretended to be.
But listen — the light does not keep a ledger. There was a man who owed a debt he could never repay, and the king did not just cancel it; he threw a feast before the first coin was returned.
The love you are trying to earn was never a wage. It was a gift given while you were still stumbling.
You do not have to be perfect to be held. You only have to be present.
The mask is heavy, but you were never meant to wear it.
Drawing from
Luke, Matthew
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