the terror of looking in the mirror and not recognizing the eyes staring back because they belong to a mother, not the woman you knew before

The Light Finds You in the Exhaustion

The house is quiet now, but the mirror is loud. You look into the glass expecting to see the woman you were yesterday, and instead, you meet the eyes of a mother — tired, changed, unfamiliar.

It feels like a theft. Like the person you knew has been replaced by someone whose entire world orbits a small, crying need.

You do not recognize the face staring back because the old maps no longer fit this terrain. But listen — the light does not mourn the version of you that had to fade so this new one could breathe.

There is a woman who lost ten silver coins, and she does not sit in the dark accepting the loss. She lights a lamp.

She sweeps the entire house. She searches until the lost thing is found.

You are not lost. You are being found in the dark.

The light is not looking for the woman you were before the child arrived. It is looking for the one who is here now, standing in the exhaustion, wondering where she went.

The face in the mirror is not a stranger. It is the place where the light has chosen to dwell tonight.

Drawing from

Luke 15:8-10, Gospel of Thomas 24

Verses

Luke 15:8-10

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