You Are Not Cold, You Are Clear
The house is quiet now, and the silence feels like proof that you have finally become the cold person you always feared being. You drew a line in the sand, and now you are staring at the emptiness on the other side, convinced that love requires you to be porous, to let everything wash over you until you drown.
But listen — the light does not demand that you burn yourself up to keep others warm. There was a moment when Jesus looked at a man broken by years of paralysis and simply said, 'Get up.' He did not apologize for the command.
He did not soften the edge of his voice to make it palatable. Sometimes the most loving thing you can do is speak a truth that feels like a wall to everyone else.
You are not becoming cold; you are becoming clear. The panic you feel tonight is not the death of your kindness — it is the growing pain of a boundary that will eventually let you love without resentment.
You are not the villain in this story; you are the one who finally decided to stay alive.
Drawing from
Mark 2:5, Gospel of Thomas 3
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