the fear that your silence is actually pride disguised as humility, keeping you from asking for help because you're terrified someone will see you're not as spiritual as you pretend

The Shrine You Built Is Empty

The house is quiet now, and the mask you wore all day feels heavy in your hands. You tell yourself you are staying silent out of humility, but a colder truth whispers in the dark: you are afraid that if you ask for help, they will see you are not as spiritual as you pretend.

You have built a shrine to your own composure, and now you are trapped inside it. But the light does not need your performance.

It comes from the place where the light came into being on its own accord, and it lives in you whether you are strong or shaking. There is a version of you that existed before the pretending started, before the fear of being found out took root.

That version is still here, waiting for you to stop hiding and simply be. The silence you keep is not holiness; it is a wall, and the light is already on the other side, waiting for you to let it in.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, John

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