the terror of your child eventually realizing you couldn't save them
The house is quiet now, and the inventory of the day begins to weigh on your chest. You watch your child sleeping, safe for this moment, and a cold terror rises: the realization that you cannot save them from everything.
That there are storms coming you cannot stop, and wounds you cannot bandage. You were never meant to be the shield that blocks every arrow.
The light does not ask you to carry a burden no human parent can hold. There was a father who saw his son coming home from a long way off, broken and empty, and he did not wait for an apology or a plan.
He ran. He did not fix the past before he embraced the future.
He simply met him in the mess. Your job is not to prevent the fall.
Your job is to be the one who runs when they stumble. The light in you is not a fortress; it is a welcome.
You cannot save them from the dark, but you can be the one who holds the lamp when they return.
Drawing from
Luke, Gospel of Thomas
Verses
Luke 15:20, Thomas 77
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