learning to live with a body that will never work the way it used to

The Light Does Not Need Your Legs

The house is quiet now, and the body you live in feels less like a home and more like a room with locked doors. You lie here remembering how it used to move, how it used to obey, and the grief for that lost version of yourself rises up in the dark.

But listen — the light does not require a functioning vessel to shine. There was a man crippled for thirty-eight years, lying beside a pool he could never reach, until a voice asked him not to explain his limitation but to stand up.

He did not need the water to be stirred. He did not need his legs to be what they were yesterday.

He only needed the voice that spoke into his specific paralysis. The same light that woke him is awake with you right now, sitting on the edge of your bed.

It is not waiting for your body to be fixed before it calls you beloved. It sees the pain, the stiffness, the failure, and it does not look away.

The light was there before the breaking, and it is here after. Your worth is not tied to what your hands can hold or what your feet can carry.

You are not a project to be repaired. You are a person to be held.

The body may be broken, but the light inside it cannot be crushed.

Drawing from

John, Gospel of Thomas

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