the terror that your child will one day apologize to you for existing

Your Child Is Already Held By Light

The house is quiet, but your mind is loud with a fear that has no business being here. You are lying awake, terrified that one day your child will look at you and apologize for existing.

That they will carry a weight they were never meant to hold. But listen — the light that lives inside them is older than your mistakes.

It was there before the first wrong word, and it will be there after the last regret. You do not have to be perfect to be the place where they find safety.

You only have to be present. The love that holds you both is greater than any apology they might one day offer.

Stop rehearsing the future in the dark. The child you are worrying about is already held, already known, already loved beyond anything you can ruin.

You are not the judge of their worth. You are just the witness to a light that cannot be extinguished.

Drawing from

1 John 3:19-20, Gospel of Thomas 3

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