the terror of being found out while still in the middle of falling apart

Holy Ground Inside Your Ruin

The house is quiet, but your heart is loud with the fear that someone will see the cracks forming beneath your skin. You are terrified of being found out while you are still in the middle of falling apart.

But notice — the light does not wait for you to be whole before it enters. Thomas says there is light within a person of light, and it lights up the whole world.

Even the broken parts. Even the parts you are trying to hide in the dark.

You do not have to fix yourself before you are seen. The light sees the fracture and calls it holy ground.

It is already inside the ruin, waiting for you to stop hiding. The terror of exposure is just the shadow of a truth you have forgotten: you were never meant to hold this together alone.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, Matthew

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