the silent terror of holding your breath while they sleep, convinced that if you make even the smallest sound, they will realize you are a fraud and leave

Resting in the Light That Knows You

The house is quiet, but your chest is tight with the effort of staying still. You hold your breath, convinced that one small sound will reveal the fraud you believe you are.

That if they truly knew the shaking inside, they would leave. But the light does not need your performance to stay.

It saw you before you ever tried to be impressive. It knows the parts you hide are the very places it calls home.

You do not have to earn your place in this room by being perfect. You are already held.

The silence is not a test you are failing. It is a presence you can finally rest in.

Drawing from

John 8:10-11, Gospel of Thomas 70

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