the panic of forgetting the sound of your own name before you became someone's parent

The Name Before the Title Remains

The house is finally quiet, but the silence feels like a stranger you cannot name. You have poured yourself out so completely for these small ones that you cannot remember the sound of your own name before you became 'Mom' or 'Dad.' It is a specific kind of panic—the fear that the person you were has been erased by the person you serve.

But listen. The light does not know you by your function.

It knew you before the first cry, before the first sleepless night, before the title was ever spoken. There is a name written on a white stone that belongs only to you, hidden from the world and even from your children.

The Father sees the parent, yes, but He also sees the child inside you who is still beloved simply for existing. You are not just the hands that feed or the voice that soothes.

You are the one who is known. The role is what you do.

The name is who you are. And the name remains, even when the role exhausts you.

Drawing from

Revelation 2:17, Sophia of Jesus Christ 93:5-8

Verses

Revelation 2:17, Sophia of Jesus Christ 93:5-8

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