the shame of standing in a grocery aisle holding an item you don't actually want because you couldn't decide on anything else

Light Sees Behind the Mask

The fluorescent lights hum overhead, bright and unforgiving, as you stand in the aisle holding a box you do not want. You bought it because you could not decide on anything else, because the weight of choosing felt too heavy for a Tuesday morning.

You wear the mask of the person who has it together, the one who knows exactly what to eat, while inside you are hollowed out by the sheer effort of pretending. But the light sees behind the performance.

It sees the exhaustion in your eyes and the tremor in your hand, and it does not ask you to put the mask back on. The truth that lives in you is not a list of correct choices or a perfect routine.

It is the quiet presence that stands with you in the artificial glow, knowing you before you ever learned to hide. You do not have to earn your place in this world by making the right decision.

The light is already here, not in the perfect grocery cart, but in the mercy that covers your uncertainty.

Drawing from

2 John, Gospel of Thomas

Verses

2 John 1:4

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