the moment you catch yourself apologizing for existing in your own body

Stop Apologizing for the Light Within

The day is ending, and you catch yourself shrinking. Making yourself smaller in the room. Apologizing for the space your body takes up, as if your existence is an inconvenience to the people you love. You say sorry for being tired. Sorry for needing help. Sorry for taking up air.

But listen — the light does not ask you to make room. It already fills the room. It is in the chair you sit on. In the floor beneath your feet. Split a piece of wood, and the light is there. Lift a stone, and you find it waiting.

You are not an intruder in your own life. You are the vessel the light chose to live in. A great wealth has made its home in this specific poverty — your aching, tired, imperfect flesh. The light looked at your body and said: I will live here.

So stop apologizing for the house the light inhabits. Do not let your heart condemn you for needing space, for needing rest, for being human.

The night is gathering, but the light is not leaving — it is settling in.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, Gospel of Mary, 1 John

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