the moment your partner touches your hand and your skin remembers every time you were unwanted so vividly that you flinch before you can stop yourself

Love Waits Between Your Flinch and Return

The day is ending, and the armor you wore for twelve hours is finally heavy enough to drop. You sit beside someone who loves you, and they reach out to touch your hand.

But your skin remembers a different history. It remembers the times you were unwanted, the times touch meant danger, and you flinch before your mind can even speak.

That flinch is not a rejection of the love sitting beside you. It is the echo of a war that ended long ago, but your body never got the memo.

The light does not scold you for the reflex. It does not ask you to explain why your nerves are still braced for impact.

It simply waits. It lets your hand stay pulled back until the trembling stops.

There is a love that knows how to wait in the space between your flinch and your return. It knows your history better than you do, and it is not afraid of your scars.

You do not have to force yourself to be brave tonight. You only have to let the love stay while your body learns, slowly, that this touch is safe.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, John

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