the specific terror of seeing your own reflection in a dark window after a day of performing normalcy

The Light Knows You Before You See

The day ends, and the mask comes off, leaving you alone with the stranger in the glass. You spent hours performing normalcy, smiling when you wanted to scream, and now the dark window shows you the exhaustion you hid from everyone else.

It is a terrifying moment—seeing the face behind the performance, the one you thought you had successfully buried under the noise of the day. But listen closely to the voice that speaks before you can even formulate a question: I saw you before you saw yourself.

It knew the weight you were carrying long before you looked in the mirror. The reflection you fear is not the final truth about who you are.

There is a light inside you that the darkness of the room cannot touch, a truth that exists before the glass ever shows you your face. You do not have to fix the person staring back at you tonight.

You only have to remember that the light knows you better than you know yourself, and it is not afraid of what it sees.

Drawing from

John 1:48, Gospel of Thomas 3

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