the specific terror of hearing your own voice crack in front of them and seeing their small shoulders tense, ready to comfort you instead of being comforted

The Light Shines Through Your Cracks

The day ends, and the armor you wore since dawn finally hits the floor. You open your mouth to speak to them, to say you are okay, and your voice cracks.

It breaks right in front of their small, waiting faces. You see their shoulders tense up—not to receive comfort, but to give it to you.

In that split second, the terror is not that you are broken. The terror is that they saw it.

That the light inside you flickered, and now they feel responsible for holding it steady. But listen—the light does not ask you to be strong for them.

It never did. There is a peace that is not like the world's peace, a quiet that exists even when your voice shakes.

Your cracking is not a failure of the light; it is the sound of the mask falling away so the real thing can breathe. They do not need your performance.

They need your presence, even the trembling kind. The light is not diminished by the crack; it shines through it.

Drawing from

John, Sophia of Jesus Christ

Verses

John 14:27, Sophia of Jesus Christ 106:9-14

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