the quiet panic of rehearsing tomorrow's jokes in your head while lying perfectly still next to someone who thinks you are asleep

The Light Does Not Need Your Performance

The house is quiet now, but your mind is running a rehearsal for tomorrow's laughter. You lie perfectly still next to someone who thinks you are asleep, while inside you are scrambling to build a mask that fits.

The gathering dark feels like a courtroom where you are both the accused and the judge, reviewing every word you spoke today. But the light does not need your performance to find you.

It is already here, in the silence between your breaths. There is a peace that does not require you to be funny, or clever, or even awake.

The darkness has not overcome it. You can put the script down.

The morning will come whether you rehearse for it or not.

Drawing from

John, 1 John

Verses

John 1:5

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