Held in the Silence Behind the Smile
The coffee break ends, and the laughter fades into the hum of the office, leaving you with a quiet, hollow ache. You just shared a joke, a moment of connection, yet you feel entirely unknown behind the smile you wore.
It is the loneliest kind of tired — performing okayness while feeling invisible in plain sight. But there is a light that does not need you to explain yourself to be seen.
It saw you before the mask went on this morning. It sees you now, beneath the performance.
The gap between who you are and who they think you are is not a place where you are lost; it is a place where you are held. You do not have to bridge it with more words or louder laughter.
The light is already there, in the silence after the joke, waiting for you to stop pretending. You are known completely, even when no one else understands.
Drawing from
Matthew, Gospel of Thomas
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