Swallowing Truth Breaks You
The clock says it is the middle of the day, and you are standing in the middle of a conversation that feels like walking on glass. You have the truth sitting heavy on your tongue, but you look at their smile—so thin, so brittle—and you swallow it back down.
You decide their fragility is more important than your honesty. You become the container for the thing that needs to be said.
But notice what happens in that swallowing: you disconnect from the light that lives in your own throat. Thomas says the kingdom is inside you, not in the sky or in someone else's approval.
When you hide what is within you, you are not protecting them; you are starving yourself. The light that is meant to shine through your words dims because you forced it back into the dark.
There is a compassion that looks like silence, and there is a fear that wears the same mask. One keeps you small.
The other sets you free. You were made to bring forth what is inside you, even when the ground feels shaky.
The truth you are holding is not a weapon; it is the very thing that will save you if you let it out. Maybe their smile breaks.
Maybe it does not. But your silence is already breaking you.
Drawing from
Gospel of Thomas 70, Gospel of Thomas 3, John 21:15-17
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