the memory of a specific moment yesterday when you laughed a little too loudly to prove you were fine, and now you can't stop replaying it to find the crack where they saw through you

The Crack Where the Light Gets Out

The afternoon sun is unforgiving, exposing the dust motes dancing in the air and the cracks in the paint you tried to ignore. You are replaying that laugh from yesterday—the one that sounded a little too loud, a little too desperate to prove you were fine.

You are scanning the memory for the exact moment they saw through the mask. But the light does not need you to be seamless.

Thomas says the kingdom is inside you, not in the performance you put on for the world. The crack you fear is actually the place where the light gets out.

You do not have to rebuild the wall. You just have to stop hiding the break.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas 3, Thomas 70

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