forcing a cheerful voice when they knock on the bathroom door

The Light Sees You Before The Mask

The afternoon sun is high, and the world expects you to be bright. So you stand in front of the mirror, forcing a smile that feels like a crack in your own face, just in case someone knocks on the bathroom door.

You practice the tone. You rehearse the 'I'm fine.' But the light does not need your performance.

It saw you before you locked the door. It knows the weight you are carrying in the silence.

There is a saying that if you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you; but if you do not bring it forth, it will destroy you. The mask is the destruction.

The truth is the saving. You do not have to be the person they expect when the handle turns.

You only have to be the one who is real. The light is not afraid of your cracks.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, Matthew

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