The Light Knows Your Wet Eyes
The afternoon sun is high, and the world outside your door is moving at a speed that feels impossible to match. You are hiding in the quiet, mouth full of tissue, eyes still wet, terrified that the voice on the other side will call your name and expect you to answer as if you are whole.
But the light does not demand a performance from behind a closed door. It knows the texture of your silence.
It knows the weight of the tissue and the salt on your cheeks. There is a story of a man who had been crippled for thirty-eight years, lying beside a pool while everyone else rushed past him, too busy to notice his stillness.
The light walked straight to him—not to the ones who could walk, but to the one who could not. It did not ask him to fix himself first.
It simply asked if he wanted to get well, and then told him to stand. You do not have to dry your face before you open the door.
The light is not looking for your composure; it is looking for you. The terror of being seen in your mess is the very place where the seeing becomes holy.
You are allowed to be the one who is still lying down while the world spins. The voice calling your name is not coming to scold you for the tears.
It is coming to tell you that the tears are enough.
Drawing from
John 5:6-8, Matthew 12:20
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