losing your faith and not knowing who you are without it

You Were Always the Light Inside

The afternoon sun is high, and the shadows are short, but inside you, the ground feels like it has given way. You built your identity on a foundation that now feels like it is crumbling, and you do not know who stands in the rubble.

It is terrifying to lose the map you have trusted for so long. But listen — the light was never the map.

The light is the ground beneath your feet, even when the map is gone. There is a luminous thought hidden deep inside you, placed there before you ever learned a single rule or recited a single creed.

It is waiting for you to stop looking at the broken structure and start feeling for the root that cannot be shaken. You are not losing yourself; you are shedding the costume you wore to fit in.

The child of true Humanity exists within you, and it is calling you to follow it out of the ruins. You were never the building.

You were always the light living inside it.

Drawing from

Apocryphon of John, Gospel of Mary

Verses

Gospel of Mary 9:4-5

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