the terror that if you stop performing the version of yourself they love, they will finally see the fraud and leave

The Light Loves the Face Underneath

The afternoon sun is high, and the mask feels heavy on your face. You are working hard to be the person they expect, terrified that if you stop performing, the fraud will be exposed and everyone will leave.

But the light does not love the costume. It loves the face underneath.

There was a man paralyzed for thirty-eight years, lying beside a pool while others stepped over him, convinced he had to earn his way into the water. The light walked straight to him, ignored the rules, and asked simply: do you want to get well?

It did not ask for his resume. It did not ask him to stand up first.

It saw the exhaustion of a lifetime spent waiting and said: get up. The version of you that is tired, the one that cannot keep up the act — that is the one the light calls by name.

You do not have to hold yourself together for the light to hold you. The performance is what keeps you lonely.

The truth is what lets you come home.

Drawing from

John, Luke

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