the moment after the embrace when you realize you don't know how to stay still without rebuilding the wall

Standing Naked in the Ordinary Light

The afternoon sun is high, and the house is quiet again. The crisis has passed, the embrace has happened, and now you are left standing in the ordinary light with no idea what to do with your hands.

The wall you spent years building is down, and the openness feels terrifyingly like exposure. You want to start stacking bricks again, just to feel safe, just to have something solid between you and the world.

But the light does not ask you to rebuild. It asks you to stand there, naked and unguarded, and simply breathe.

There was a woman bent double for eighteen years, convinced her spine was meant to stay curved toward the dust. The light called her forward and said: 'Woman, you are set free.' She straightened up immediately.

Not because she knew how to walk upright. Not because she had a plan for her new posture.

But because the freedom came first, and the walking would follow. You do not need to know how to inhabit this new space yet.

You only need to stop reaching for the rubble. The light is not afraid of your vulnerability.

It is the only thing solid enough to hold you while you learn how to stand without armor.

Drawing from

Luke 13:10-13, Gospel of Thomas 70

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