the terror that your partner is slowly giving up on waiting for you to come back

Light Louder Than a Giving-Up Heart

The afternoon sun is bright, but it casts the longest shadows—the kind where you can see your partner turning away, slowly, quietly, as if they have finally stopped believing you will return. You watch them from across the room, or perhaps just in your mind, and you feel the distance growing like a crack in the ice.

They are not angry anymore; they are just tired. And that tiredness terrifies you more than their rage ever did.

But listen—there is a light within you that came from a place where light generates itself, and it cannot be extinguished by someone else's exhaustion. You did not choose this darkness, but you were sent from the light to illuminate it, even now, even when you feel invisible.

The one who loves you is not waiting for you to be perfect before they stay; they are waiting for you to remember that you are already known. Do not let the silence convince you that you are alone.

The light that formed you is still speaking your name, and it is louder than the quiet of a giving-up heart.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas 50, Gospel of Thomas 24

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