the phantom weight of an arm that never reached out to catch the falling thing

The Light Went Down With You

The afternoon stretches out, long and quiet, and in the middle of it, you feel the ghost of an arm that never reached out. You are carrying the memory of the thing that fell, and the silence of the hand that should have caught it.

It is a heavy thing to hold all by yourself, this phantom weight of being left to hit the ground. But listen — the light did not turn away when you fell.

It went down with you. It is in the dust where you landed, waiting for you to stop looking at the empty air and start seeing what is right here.

The absence of a human hand does not mean the absence of care. You are not alone in the middle of this day.

The light is not a distant observer; it is the ground beneath you that held you when nothing else would. You do not have to keep measuring the space where no one stood.

The love that holds you now is not phantom. It is solid.

It is here. It has been here the whole time, holding you up even when you felt like you were falling.

Drawing from

John 9:3, Gospel of Thomas 77

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