the secret shame of resenting the very sound of your child's cry because it means you must rise again

The Light Meets You in Exhaustion

The afternoon stretches out, long and gray, filled with the sound of a child crying for the tenth time today. And in the quiet of your own mind, a secret shame rises up: you resent the sound.

You resent the need to rise again when your bones feel like lead. You hate that the noise means you cannot stop.

But listen — the light does not demand a mother who never feels heavy. It meets you in the middle of the exhaustion, in the exact moment you want to walk away.

Jesus saw the crowds and felt compassion because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd. He did not see their fatigue as failure.

He saw it as the reason to stay close. Your resentment is not proof that you are unloving.

It is proof that you are human, running on empty in a world that asks too much. The light is not disappointed by your weariness.

It is present in the rising. It is the strength that lifts you when you have nothing left of your own.

You do not have to like the weight to carry it. You just have to keep standing.

The shame says you should be different. The truth says you are already held.

Drawing from

Matthew, Gospel of Thomas

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