the terror that your child has learned to stop waiting for you

The Light Remembers When They Cannot

The afternoon stretches out, long and gray, filled with the quiet terror that your child has finally stopped waiting for you. They have learned to settle the ache by lowering their eyes, to find comfort in the silence where your voice used to be.

It feels like a failure written in their bones, a story of absence they are memorizing by heart. But listen — the light does not operate on their timeline of disappointment.

There is a love that lives inside them that predates every moment you were gone, every promise you broke, every time you didn't show up. That light was there before the waiting began, and it remains untouched by the silence.

Your absence could not extinguish it; your delay could not dim it. The Father's love is not a reaction to your presence; it is the ground they stand on.

You can come home now, even if their eyes are downcast. Even if they have forgotten how to look up.

The light in them remembers you when they cannot. And it is strong enough to hold both of you until the waiting ends.

Drawing from

John, Gospel of Thomas

Verses

John 14:18

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