hearing your own voice sound like a stranger's when you try to remind her who you are

Let the stranger's voice become your own

The afternoon stretches out, long and gray, and you try to speak a word of hope to the part of you that is hurting. But the voice that comes out sounds foreign.

Like a stranger reading a script you didn't write. You feel like an impostor in your own mouth, pretending to know the way when you are just as lost as the silence you are trying to break.

— That disconnect is not a failure of your faith. It is the friction of the light working while you are awake.

There was a man who had been blind from birth, and when he was asked who healed him, he did not offer a theology or a perfect argument. He simply said, 'I was blind but now I see.' He did not need to sound like a prophet.

He only needed to sound like himself, telling the truth about what happened. The light does not require you to borrow a voice that isn't yours.

It is already speaking in the quiet hum of your endurance, in the simple fact that you are still here, still trying to reach the parts of you that feel far away. You do not need to perform certainty for the darkness to lift.

You just need to let the stranger's voice become your own, one honest word at a time. The light is not in the perfection of the speech; it is in the courage to speak at all.

Drawing from

John, Gospel of Thomas

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