the silent panic of freezing mid-gesture because you are terrified the shake will start again if you move

The Light Shines Even When You Shake

The afternoon stretches out, long and bright, and you find yourself frozen mid-reach, terrified that if you move, the shaking will start again. You hold your breath, suspending the gesture, waiting for the tremor to pass so you can pretend it never happened.

But the light does not ask you to be steady before it moves through you. It sees the tension in your hand, the fear of the quake, and it whispers: just move.

Even if you shake. Even if you spill.

The miracle is not in the stillness you are trying to force; it is in the motion you are afraid to make. There is light within a person of light, and it lights up the whole world even when the vessel trembles.

If you do not bring forth what is within you because you are afraid of how it looks, the unexpressed truth will become the very thing that traps you. The shake is not the enemy; the freeze is.

Let the hand move. Let the cup rattle.

The light is not in the perfect grip; it is in the reaching itself.

Drawing from

Gospel of Thomas, Mark

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